Need some hugs...

[Milaya]

There I was, with my both parents injured and my brother with his problems(burglars and trees almost falling on his new housé).I wished some troubles for me because it felt so wrong.Why should I get all what I wanted, when all my nearest is suffering?
Then it hit me.Without any warning I heard that my ex is getting married.It hurts me more than I can tell.So much I know of him, because we spent nearly 10 years together this is not his time in the yeat to get married.So what's wrong?
And then: I made a cross stich for him.A very difficult one.I had to learn to do quarter stich and french knots and it's very big.I don't want to give it to him.So what to do?
My heart is crying blood.I'm so lonely.All my so called friends are turning their back to me.
You, fellow scapers are the only ones I got left.
I just want to die...
Put a black rose on my grave...

[MotorWerk]

Wish I could be there with you.
Don't give up honey...

http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y130/MotorWerk/dog20hug.jpg

...besides, don't forget you promised to buy me dinner next year.

[kechara420]

:hug: :hug: I'm sorry sweetie. I know how much it hurts to still care about someone who obviously doesn't care about you. Cry, vent, let all the anger, hurt and unhappiness pour out of you ... and replace it with better things. Come here as much as you can, and surround yourself with those of us who DO care and are your real friends.

And if that doesn't work ... you could always try a voodoo doll, or a curse or something :D ...

[Milaya]

Wish I could be there with you.
Don't give up honey...

...besides, don't forget you promised to buy me dinner next year.
I won't forget.I have even chosen a perfect restaurant for us...I can even speak some norwegian, but it's lond time have done it...Still I understand you even if I will speak swedish...
Atleast some good to wait for...

[Milaya]

I'm drinking my head full.Only thing that keeps me going straight in to emptiness is you fellow scapers and my pets.

[BrowderChick]

:hug: Come hang around here where your friends are. Its hard to love someone that doesnt love you back. But hang in there. The right one will come along when you least expect it. I hope everything brightens up for you soon. :) But we are all here for you. :hug:

[BrowderChick]

I'm drinking my head full.Only thing that keeps me going straight in to emptiness is you fellow scapers and my pets.
Drinking wont fill your head, it will only make it hurt worse when you sober up. :hug:

[Milaya]

But what to do with the cross stitch? burn it and barbecue a sausage on it?I'm crazy, I know.Lisening to bonnie tyler-hero for the moment...

[MotorWerk]

Keep it for now. You never know what tomorrow brings.

[Zimtsternchen]

Three words that once saved my sanity- hang in there. We are there for you. My cat Lucy say hi too. For the rest I should not give advice as I am very drunk myself. It will get better eventually. Maybe give him the cross stitch anyway. Take care.

[MotorWerk]

I'm going to a concert now, Palace of Pleasure (yeah, I know, it sounds like a bad porn-flick, but they are really good www.palace.no). I'll bring you with me in spirit, we'll grab a couple of beers, sit down on the grass (its an outdoor gig) and enjoy ourselves. Later we go to the club Nylon, where a friend of mine is DJing tonight. The bartender makes the best Long Island Iced Tea in Oslo...

[BrowderChick]

What is the cross stitch of? If its just a picture or of a general nature, you could give it to someone else that might like the work you put into it.

[Milaya]

What is the cross stitch of? If its just a picture or of a general nature, you could give it to someone else that might like the work you put into it.
Winie the pooh.It's worth someting like 200 dollars...But who ever likes it will get it...But it's not framed...It will be sighned by me anyway.

[trubador]

:hug: to Milaya
:drinkin: to MotorWerk

[kechara420]

Winie the pooh.It's worth someting like 200 dollars...But who ever likes it will get it...But it's not framed...It will be sighned by me anyway.Pooh Bear!! :D Do you have any friends or family members who are big fans? I wouldn't suggest giving it to a kid, as he/she probably wouldn't appreciate all the work you put into it.

You know, now that I think about it ... keep it. Package it up, and tuck it away in the attic or the top shelf of your closet. Don't look at it; just leave it as one of those things that you pack away and forget about. In a year, take it out and look at it. If it hurts you to look at it and think of your ex, pack it up again. Take it back out in another year. When you can finally look at it and and feel proud and happy of the work, not sad and hurt because of your ex, you'll know that you're finally over him. Then, hang it in a special place in your house, to remind you that you are a strong person who can survive pain and heartache.

[Milaya]

In the writing it stands: Everybody loves to play, in a splashy sort of way!
There is no error on the work, it's if I'm allowed to say, perfect...
It's so big...I have it front of me for the moment...So much work...I'm only crying...
I don't want to say, but can't help it, I'm too famous to do such things...I haven't signed all my works.This is my biggest cross stich ever...

[MotorWerk]

I'm back from the gig now, and wow! did we have a great time! You were even asked to go on stage to sing to the chorus of "Betty Ford, Here We Come!" Fantastic!

[zahncrelnik]

:hug: Milaya :hug:
sending good thoughts your way
I have heartbreaking lonely times too, you are not alone!!!
Your 'Scaper friends are here for you.

[who45]

:hug:

[JadeScape]

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[Milaya]

No, I'm still not ok.Had a strange dream last night.I wasn't a nightmare, but still creapy.Could expect it...
And there's a song in the radio.Heard it 3 times already.It's finnish and if I translate it's song to english, it would be let's cancel the wedding(Anneli Mattila-Perutaan häät), gives me a laugh!
I wish that bitch suffers a painfull deat in front of my ex! I'm so angry, it's dangerous to be in my surroundings for the moment.
The sun is shining, I allways hated it!

[scrape_medic]

:hug:

Don't let your feelings for him ruin your life. What Kech said is good advice. Put it away until you can look at it without associating it with your feelings for him.

[Clarsax]

:hug: :hug:

[Milaya]

It's a little bit easier for me now.Haven't been crying anymore.
But all thank is to you fellow Scapers!There ain't better friends than you!

[Milaya]

And coming to think about it, perhaps it was even better that I hadn't had a chance to give that cross stitch to him.Atleast that bitch can't watch it or even worse, distroy it...I keep it and think of someting to do with it.But now it stays in the closet...

[who45]

Yes, that is good. Maybe start a memory box. I have one for things that are from my past ... like past relationships, friends and family...items such as cards and momentos, things that I don't want to throw away for sentimental reasons. It will take time, but you will get thru this. I know it took me a while when my ex cheated on me with my then best friend and they have been married for about 2 years now. It does hurt, but the pain does dull after awhile. I have been able to look back and say good riddance to them both for a while now. You have friends here as well to help you thru. :) :hug:

[Nhoj]

Milaya, don't let them ruin the most beautiful thing you've been working on in your life, and I don't mean a cross stitch. I mean yourself. That's what will happen if you permit bitterness to warp who you are. You deserve better then this man. The fact that he is marrying someone else is good for you, as you are not being tied down with a man who is unworthy of you. This other woman is getting exactly what she deserves, a man who is unworthy of you!

I agree with Kechara, as to what to do with the cross stitch. Hang in there Milaya, just as when you expect more from yourself, you achieve it, so will you achieve it when you expect more for yourself. Always remember, you deserve the best things life has to offer and that includes the best man, which this drannit obviously isn't. We're here for you if you need someone to talk to. :hug:

[99littleyellowbolts]

Drop all the stuff from the relationship in a box, put it somewhere out of sight and forget about it. I'm debating pointing out that Aeryn had it hard too and you might find some comfort watching that ep fourth season. But you might find it easier to do a pickme up and watch the first season ep where the crew gets stuck in starburst. It's one of the few times they're all together as a family. Time may not heal all wounds, but Farscape sure as frell will! Love and Reslak! :D

[BrowderChick]

Winie the pooh.It's worth someting like 200 dollars...But who ever likes it will get it...But it's not framed...It will be sighned by me anyway.
That sounds so adorable.

:hug:

[I-am-so-Johns-girl]

Don't look back Milaya....look foward! :D

I hope this picture makes you smile.

[Milaya]

Don't look back Milaya....look foward! :D

I hope this picture makes you smile.
That pic brings me memories...I once had a cat that fell into my big fish tank.It was my ex that rescued it and he hated cats before this happened.They were friends forever.That cat died in an accident a year ago on Friday the 13th.I still miss her so.I loved her from the first moment I saw her, but she was my that time friend's.And then that so called friend dumped her and I will never forgive her...But I had a chance to love and own that cat for 7 years.I have a pic of my ex and that cat together.Just the way I want to remember them!

[Milaya]

I saw my ex's wedding pic in todays paper.I hardly recognized him.He didn't seem to be that person I knew.Something was missing...Seeing this pic didn't hurt me.Perhaps more happy or confused.If he really has becomed something like this, it's better he's not around anymore.